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Saturday, January 31, 2009 anyway i just watched brides war today! love the movie. love the denouement :) its just so feel good. and brunette vs blonde is just interesting :):) XOXO 2:11 AM Friday, January 30, 2009 XOXO 1:59 AM
i dun understand how i can feel so strongly about going one moment, and the next moment, the feeling is just not there anymore. maybe i should just stay put. :( i want to wear my boots! :(:( XOXO 1:41 AM Wednesday, January 28, 2009 yes like now! before i go off to germany. but its seem a bad idea to go now. like what if all the letter starts coming in asking for immediate replies??? and i miss another deadline???? but korea seems so tempting! esp if i can get my aunt to let me redeem tickets on her kris flyerpoints and i get free accomodation! and i am really so bored at home now. its just staying home and listening to my grandma talk on the phone now. and wonderring what everyone is doing at school:( on the other hand, i am really worried abt the admin of the german trip! :( how??? should i go??? XOXO 12:24 AM Thursday, January 22, 2009 speaking of my sister, she is getting on my nerves! maybe the holidays has made us see other more and as a result, we keep stepping on each other toes. we keep arguing over the smallest stuff and communication is a big problem. just reminds me of the times when we quarreled EVERY SINGLE DAY. gosh. and i remember i used to hide in the toilet and cry after quarrelling. SO STUPID. even stupider was how i still felt like crying today. after we lost our tempers at each other. sians!!!!!!!!!!!!! went shopping by myself at bugis and i feel so guilty for all the impulsive buys! like 5 minutes after i buy sth, i will immediately wonder, WHY DID I BUY THIS!!! and feel this dull horrible feeling cos i am splurging like nobody's buiness and i am so broke! sians.i am supposed to be saving up for germany. what am i doing man!!! i also met up with the tr2201 people this morning for lunch at botak jones. first time i have woken up so early in a long time! my sun rises at 12pm now! gosh i am getting influenced by omela. and its so terrible cos u wake up and half the day is gone :( u dun even get to experience morning! :( and i used to think morning was my favourite time of the day! sians maybe i just dun want to wake up and have to answer the incessants call asking for my grandma. oh dear. she has a more hectic socail life than me nowadays. :( anyway it was really great meeting up with everyone though there were few absentees like agustin and kelvin. kelvn is in sweden now! so lucky! bet he is going gaga over all the hot swedish girls now. maybe i should go pay him a visit sometime! :) and yes back to lunch. botak jones wasnt really as good as i though la. the cajun burger was nice but not as good as i had expected. maybe i should try other dishes next time. and yes!!!!!!!!!! david is going to korea soon! lucky david. and i have this sudden urge to just pack my bag and jet off to korea to look for kim! sigh david made me think alot of korea by talking abt kim chi. bibimbap, and omg he is going skiing! how cool is that. I WANT TO GO TO KOREA! DOESNT HELP THAT I SAW THE COFFEE PRINCE COFFEE SHOP ON TV MOBILE!!! :):) OMG THIS IS REALLY JUST ONE SHITLOAD OF RAMBLING. sigh i think i have became so bored that i have to resign myself to talking to myself on my blog. and i realised i am bloggin alot more nowadays. COS I AM SO FREE AND BORED. WHERE ARE ALL MY FRIENDS??? i miss talking on the phone. CALL ME! XOXO 1:59 AM Monday, January 19, 2009 XOXO 1:30 AM Saturday, January 17, 2009 its like some sickening mind game. and i am always the one feeling upset. maybe the truth always hurts. i hate how everything is. but routines are hard to break out of you know. dun make me hate home. XOXO 9:58 PM Thursday, January 15, 2009 steamboat with all the singaporean pple sounds great. and the part abt lugging the pot there is hilarious. heh. and all the photos look really exciting. all the travelling, cooking camarderie.. :):) and kaka says she is coming to visit me during her break! will be looking forward to it too!:) i just hope i will find it in myself to do the things i want and not leave with any regrets. since my whole entire life till now can be sumed up in just one word: regret. yikes.ok no time to get emo. see u soon germany! ps. all racist pple, stay away from me! XOXO 11:09 PM Wednesday, January 14, 2009 saw a half page ad in the newspaper today by SIA flight to frankfurt only SGD 1198! inclusive of all taxes! :(:( feeel so cheated! why must they come up with such a promotion only after i have booked my tickets???? :(:( XOXO 11:31 PM Monday, January 12, 2009 i finally booked my tickets to stuttgart. flying by qantas at a fare of SGD1643! cheapest i could find after scrouging around for so long! i thought i got a good deal, cos it was relatively short (16 hrs including transit time) and it will get me direct to stuttgart. it was only after i confirmed everything that i realised that the second connecting aircraft from frankfurt to stuttgart is actually a TRAIN???!!!!!! since then i started having horrible thoughts of me lugging my pink >20kg lugguage up and down the stairs and up the horribly high train platform.. not particularly looking forward to it... :(:( on a happier note, at least i wont be flying alone. XOXO 2:40 PM Friday, January 09, 2009 omg i amso stupidand i feel like cryingggg! though it isnt going to help. nad seeing the list of NASA recipients and learning that EVERYONE going to stuttgart has applied for the scholarship and got it makes me feeel even worse than i do now. its the kind os awful ache in ur heart where u really want to slap urself and ask why i didnt do that million things i should. i keep thinking of the money. s$3500 for the NASA award and 480 euro a month for the baden Wuerttemberg scholarship is damn alot of money and i was too non chalant to even clarify matters. laziness kills i swear. i dunno how i am going to explain to my aunt. the amt of money that i could have gotten. the thought is making me feel sick. omf omf omf XOXO 1:44 AM
i am the stupidest person alive! and i know its most stupid. omg the woman in germany just told me i didnt get the baden wurtenburg scholarship. cos apparently the partner uni i.e nus must nominate and they didnt nominate me. OMG and i suspect that its because i didnt sign up for the nus NASA award. so they think i dun need the money. wts i didnt sign up for it cos i was under the impression i couldnt sign up for both! and since the bw scholarship is worth more, i decided to wait for that. but!!!!!!!!!! now i am left with none. nothing. tell me why i am so stupid! i should have signed up for the NUS one! i wasnt even sure i was going to get the baden wurtenburg one in the first place. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh help! i need financial aid! :(:( XOXO 1:02 AM Tuesday, January 06, 2009 fine! ignore me! its not like i dunno how unimportant i am to u. sometimes i really dunno how to feel towards you. your actions leave much to desire. u make me feel so pissed sometimes, i feel like crying. but somehow i know i would never want you to stop being my friend. i want to have a blog in which no one knows of. but i need to ask my sis first. haha XOXO 2:23 AM Sunday, January 04, 2009 i mean, i always feel sad coming back from a holiday. i never thought of home when i am overseas. but the thought of not being home or seeing anyone familiar for 6 months is quite scary. really scary and painfully near. i am gg to miss everything and everyone when i am gone. but is anyone going to miss me? its sad to know that u are only a fleeting presence in someone's life and your absence doesnt mean much. would everyone have adjusted to life without me by the time i am back? XOXO 10:52 PM
i am a lousy friend. sometimes i feel really self centred. whatever happened to being there for ur friend? XOXO 6:05 PM |