i ventured my first step out into singapore air for the first time in 5.5 months and i almost died.

yes the humidity was that suffocating.felt like someone thrown a warm and thick blanket over me. it was baddddddddddd

that and the feeling of loss was so overwhelming i wanted to cry but i couldnt. guess the tears ran out ytd. i felt like going back into the stoning/dazed state i was since saturday but ai fung was waiting for me.

then my family came. could tell my mum misses me. she was like going to cry too...and i hugged her and i cried too. and when i hugged my grandma too.sigh. i always thought noone could cry like qiling. guess the tears are free flow these two days.

went out for dinner with family and the feeling was weird. the weather was weird, everyone was speaking weirdly, i dun seee any caucasians, i dun hear any German. and EVERYTHING WAS STRANGE.

went back home and got a huge surprise! jo and omela hid in my room and decorated it with ballons and hearts( so in sync with my birthday theme) haha and had a birthday cake. cried again when i saw them. didnt understand why. dun understand what feeling it was. just felt very glad that they were there. there and then.

with the hearts that say " WELCOME HOME ALYCIA" :)

thank you babes.

XOXO 1:10 AM