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Saturday, August 15, 2009 i went to swaben gallerie for the last time to print photos and the fact that i was never going to see this place again hurts. after all, it had been a familiar sight for the past 5 months. and in my daze i heard someone call me and it was sergi and irem. they bade me farewell, both gave me a final hug and final kiss and the tears were threatening to fall. sergi then give me one last hug and i was feelign so miserable that i was never goign to see them again, the tears just came. had to run off before the sobbing starts. :( reached the hauptbahnhof to send qiling off and the atmosphere wasnt very good. marce was trying to be strong and trying to bring up the atmosphere like how she always does. but it just wasnt working that day. qiling hugged her grandma for the last time and it was sadnesss. seeing qi ling waving to the back view of her leaving grandma was heart wrenching. then the dreaded train had to come. by then qiling, emma and i were crying non stop again. we watched as the train pulled away, pulled away as qi ling was still waving at us from the interior of the train through the windows. you will never understand how it feels till u experience it yourself. seeing someone u love pull away is tragic. and the feeling is undescribably saddd. the sadnesss just floods you. yes i know its stupid cos i will be seeing teo qiling soon in singapore. but i guess it was just the mood that day. everything was sad. :( teo qi ling... just want to thank you for being here on this special journey in my life with me. there will never be so much tears and laughter without you here( literally). and you put so much laughter, much more than u can expect and imagine into my life over the past 5 months. and this dream is for us ending, but we just have to carry on and be glad that it happened ya? wont be 24/7 by your side anymore in sg so i give u this pic, and hope that evrytime you are upset, u remember this pizza eis, and hope it brings the smile back to your face. :) I LOVE U BAO BEI!  went back to an empty house and my tears were threatening tofall each time i cleared the toilet of my stufff, cleared the kitchen of all my stuff, cleared the wardrobe, cleared evrything. and looking at everything fills me up with even more grief, every neighbour's door, every item in the house, even the toilets and kitchen cos it will be the last time i will be seeing them again. i was depressed that my neighbours werent there to say goodbye. but thinking back, it was probably better. i cant imagine saying good bye to them. its too hard. left them all a goodbye letter and a singapore flag. STEPHAN, FRANZ, MIKEL, CHRIS AND ADRIAN please come to singapore soon! MAN TRIFFT IMMER ZWEIMAL INS LEBEN! :(  locked the room for the last time. and the tears fell again. the trip to the main station was horrible, and we soon erupted into another crying session when the train came. and when daniel kissed me goodbye and said one kiss was from fabrizio too. it was just painful. and emma kissing u repeatedly with tears in her big big eyes were just too painful to look at. and marce who was trying not to cry and holding you so dear, you wonder how you can ever say goodbye.  Good bye my friends. it was one hell of a good time we had together. emma told me on the train. there is a difference between never seeing each other again and not seeing each other for a long time. i hope long is not too long. the train pulled again like it had to and i was left all alone in the train. travelling to reality. how do i ever get over all this? XOXO 1:42 AM |