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Friday, October 31, 2008
halloween today and i am so bored!!! on the bus along bukit timah just now and i saw groups of people going trick or treating. in their costumes! hahah looks so fun! unfortunately i was on the bus on my way home to isolation and boredom:(:( sorry for complaining so much but there is just this thing about being home when everyone is just having fun outside. argh.

i am supposed to start on my german project but i cant seem to start. i am likefreezing inside my room and everything just seem so cold and stagnant. yikes. horrible feeling. nobody is online, all with their own programmes and there is like nth to do online. checked the mail, seen the photos and now there is nth to do. high time to start writing for my project. but..haha. will rather stone than start.

this has been a rather eventful week and i really had fun yesterday! tea witht the video room gang in an ant infested lover's park (i miss them all. the 4 of us havent been seen tgt for a mightilylong time! ) and dinner with the koreans(kim and her friend) was a scrumptious affair comprising frog legs and porridge!!!! super delicious although its funny how none of my friends will actually eat it with me. :( ahahahah

other than those two exciting events, of course there was the usual alycia sad times. oral on tuesday was a disaster and a good analogy will be like sending me to an arabic oral or sth. totally just blanked out and i only vaguely remembered muttering something incoherent. :( and the trip to the beer brewery was just literally downing my sorrows in beer :( i hate german!
cried while watching tv and i couldnt stop crying after that. think i just gave way(again) after keeping all the emotions inside of me for a while. nth seems to be going well at school. i feel lousy at myself cos i dun work myself hard enough, even lousier when my results proved me correct, feel stupid that i am always acting like i dun care when every single assignment and grade affect me so much. even stupider when i need to have people around me to talk to and there isnt or frustrated when i want to talk but i cannot mouth the words. and i blame myself the most for blaming people when they dun get me.

ifeellikethisgirlwhoneedsomeonetoholdherupontheinside
becauseinsidesheiscrumbling.

XOXO 10:24 PM


Monday, October 27, 2008
there is so many things to do. so many people around.
but the heart still feels lonely.

XOXO 11:39 AM


Sunday, October 19, 2008
命中注定我爱你！


shit i am in such a fairy airy mood again. all because of the show. yikes. hate taiwanese dramas cos its so unrealistic and u know it. but u cant stop day-dreaming after watching it. AND YOU CANT STOP WATCHING IT! :( = cant stop day-dreamig.

sigh. ALYCIA CHUA! YOU ARE TOO OLD FOR THIS!

anyway its such a bad time to be watching it because i have so much stuff to do and i cannot afford the time but ya... i cannot! :( i even contemplated asking my aunt to hide the dvd from me but i decided she will never fail to remind me of my lack of self discipline so there goes.. :(

XOXO 10:44 PM


Sunday, October 12, 2008
i literally want to throw myself out of the window.



i cant believe anyone could be so stupid.
i just deleted everything i have done over the past few hours.
by accident.
i am really really so tired already. why do i have to do this kind of stupid things??
oh i forgot.. because i am stupid.


when will everything things stop being so wrong?

XOXO 2:04 AM


Saturday, October 11, 2008
this is such a bad and horrible week.
i dunnno what i have been doing in school.
it feels like i havent done anything beside going for class
and every lec or tut is horrible.
maybe i am the one without any friends.


you know it really feels horrible when someone tells you they are disappointed in you?

XOXO 10:01 PM


Friday, October 10, 2008
today is such a bad day.
some bitch just spoiled my day for me and it didnt get any better as the day went on.

somehow the only adjectives that i can find to describe myself are; selfish, lazy, ultra sensitive and ...

i cant think of any positive adjectives:(

its one of those days where the whole world offended me and i offended the whole world.

XOXO 9:46 PM


Sunday, October 05, 2008
i am being so anti social nowadays!
i cant believe i didnt even stepped out of the house for the whole weekend.
yikes.
time flies though.

XOXO 11:09 PM


Friday, October 03, 2008
:)

havent felt like this in along time

XOXO 2:43 AM


Wednesday, October 01, 2008
nowi understand why i hated science.
its not understandable.

spent the whole afternoon studying for GEK 1535.
i cant understand anything.
can someone ask them to write in english next time???

rah. i am gg to cry. i swear!

XOXO 6:11 PM