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alycia
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Friday, October 31, 2008
halloween today and i am so bored!!! on the bus along bukit timah just now and i saw groups of people going trick or treating. in their costumes! hahah looks so fun! unfortunately i was on the bus on my way home to isolation and boredom:(:( sorry for complaining so much but there is just this thing about being home when everyone is just having fun outside. argh.

i am supposed to start on my german project but i cant seem to start. i am likefreezing inside my room and everything just seem so cold and stagnant. yikes. horrible feeling. nobody is online, all with their own programmes and there is like nth to do online. checked the mail, seen the photos and now there is nth to do. high time to start writing for my project. but..haha. will rather stone than start.

this has been a rather eventful week and i really had fun yesterday! tea witht the video room gang in an ant infested lover's park (i miss them all. the 4 of us havent been seen tgt for a mightilylong time! ) and dinner with the koreans(kim and her friend) was a scrumptious affair comprising frog legs and porridge!!!! super delicious although its funny how none of my friends will actually eat it with me. :( ahahahah

other than those two exciting events, of course there was the usual alycia sad times. oral on tuesday was a disaster and a good analogy will be like sending me to an arabic oral or sth. totally just blanked out and i only vaguely remembered muttering something incoherent. :( and the trip to the beer brewery was just literally downing my sorrows in beer :( i hate german!
cried while watching tv and i couldnt stop crying after that. think i just gave way(again) after keeping all the emotions inside of me for a while. nth seems to be going well at school. i feel lousy at myself cos i dun work myself hard enough, even lousier when my results proved me correct, feel stupid that i am always acting like i dun care when every single assignment and grade affect me so much. even stupider when i need to have people around me to talk to and there isnt or frustrated when i want to talk but i cannot mouth the words. and i blame myself the most for blaming people when they dun get me.

ifeellikethisgirlwhoneedsomeonetoholdherupontheinside
becauseinsidesheiscrumbling.

XOXO 10:24 PM